I used to think that if I was a good person, things should work out for me. I spent a lot of times doing things that were “good”. I put others over myself and thought that meant good things would happen to me, and well, that didn’t work out as I had expected. I did everything I was supposed to do and ended up sick, tired, and miserable because my underlying beliefs were that I needed to do / be something other than what I was in order to be worthy. I used to be a perfectionis

When you have anxiety like I do, there are some points where everything feels way too scary and real and heavy. There are situations where it feels like time is standing still and I’ll never get out of the pain of the moment. And then, it fades. Every single time. I’m learning to not be so scared and my anxiety has gotten to the point where it’s almost non existent. I used to have anxiety that would paralyze me into in decision and at some points made me literally go lay down

I believe that life is a mix of the actions we take, which are largely based on our subconscious beliefs, and some sort of connection between everything. Two-fold. We are both in control and out of control at the same time. That’s the duality of having a human experience. Letting go of what we cannot control is super important for inner peace. Controlling what we can is extremely important for expansion. I was listening to a meditation today and the words playing in my backgr

I haven’t been keeping up with a morning routine lately. I’ve been rolling out of bed basically 15 minutes before I head to my kitchen table (temporary home office) for my 9-5 job that has been remote for over a month now. To say my morning “rut” started after NY mandated to stay at home would be a lie. It’s been around for months before that. The last part of 2018 was a really big year of change for me in a really positive way. It started with a two month long social media d

I sat on the train home wondering “why?”, once again. Today, I didn’t take very good care of myself and I’m feeling sick physically, mentally, and emotionally. I guess it’s a good thing I can recognize the cause pretty easily now. I used to live in the state more often than not: forgetting about me and letting everything else get my attention. The attention I was giving to everyone and everything else wasn’t very good. It was scattered. It was frazzled. It was drained and som

Today, I’m here to say you are not broken. Just because you’ve experienced these thoughts throughout your lifetime doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you. Just because your anxious or depressed or any label stamped onto you doesn’t mean that defines you. A lot of us have been set up for this type of thinking because we were all raised by imperfect humans, live in an imperfect society, and we, ourselves, are imperfect. Imperfect doesn’t mean broken, it simply means human

Daily habits can be magic or poison. They can feed my soul or my ego. I’ve been working on myself for quite some time and have had many realizations over the past few years but this really is the one that effects me the most. “You are what you repeatedly do” is so fricken true. I was caught in a cycle of toxic thoughts even when I was practicing spirituality. I would constantly think something was wrong with me and still struggled with self-esteem and confidence until I reali

Believing the future can be better than the present moment is what faith is all about, and the opposite- thinking it will be worse is what fear is. If both need our energy, why would I actively choose to use the beautiful power of my mind and imagination against myself? Why assume I know that things are going to unfold badly when it’s just a choice to have faith that things can, do, and will work out better than I had hoped for? Each time I’ve gone through a “bad” experience,

myself, my relationship(s), and my work – but I know now that nothing happens in isolation and this is very evident given the fact that I am experiencing big changes in all of them at this point in time. Transitions can be stressful – any change can be scary and when they’re going on in a bunch of different areas it can be overwhelming. There’s so much to do and sometimes it doesn’t feel like there’s enough time to do everything. I noticed myself getting into a mindset surrou

I place expectations on myself, other people, and situations as we all do since this is a human experience. We learn from when we’re young that expectations can protect us and we learn from our parents to place them on all sorts of things. When we didn’t live up to our parents expectations we were punished or given the talk “I’m not mad, just disappointed” ugh what a dagger to that heart that line was. People can only be disappointed if there’s an expectation along with it. T

Sometimes I get frustrated with myself for making decisions that aren’t the best for me. I think this may happen to a lot of people who have decided to take responsibility for their life. I know that only I have control over what I say and what I do, so when I say something or act in a way that is not my best, I feel like I’m backtracking – not living life the way I know I am capable of. It’s harder for me to forgive myself than to forgive other people. I feel responsible for

Sometimes I get frustrated with myself for making decisions that aren’t the best for me. I think this may happen to a lot of people who have decided to take responsibility for their life. I know that only I have control over what I say and what I do, so when I say something or act in a way that is not my best, I feel like I’m backtracking – not living life the way I know I am capable of. It’s harder for me to forgive myself than to forgive other people. I feel responsible for

Do you believe in signs? You could call me a sign-maniac. Not in a bad way, just in a – I can see anything and relate it back to some sort of connection even if it’s faaaarrr stretch to some. I love all kinds of signs. I love number signs. I love looking up their meanings even when I know them verbatim most of the time. I guess this is my way of validating what I already know to be true. I like to think the universe is backing me up. I usually get tons of signs when I’m in th

Love, the natural way that we were born to operate and ever-lasting. Fear, the mask(s) that clouds – born of this earth and die once we transform. It’s really interesting to see the dynamic between my life when I make decisions in love and oppositely, in fear. Every time I do something in love I feel clear, light, and things seem to fall together so seamlessly and easily. They just flow. Whenever I do something in fear, I feel clouded, heavy, and everything feels like work: h