I used to think that if I was a good person, things should work out for me. I spent a lot of times doing things that were “good”. I put others over myself and thought that meant good things would happen to me, and well, that didn’t work out as I had expected. I did everything I was supposed to do and ended up sick, tired, and miserable because my underlying beliefs were that I needed to do / be something other than what I was in order to be worthy. I used to be a perfectionis

When you have anxiety like I do, there are some points where everything feels way too scary and real and heavy. There are situations where it feels like time is standing still and I’ll never get out of the pain of the moment. And then, it fades. Every single time. I’m learning to not be so scared and my anxiety has gotten to the point where it’s almost non existent. I used to have anxiety that would paralyze me into in decision and at some points made me literally go lay down

I believe that life is a mix of the actions we take, which are largely based on our subconscious beliefs, and some sort of connection between everything. Two-fold. We are both in control and out of control at the same time. That’s the duality of having a human experience. Letting go of what we cannot control is super important for inner peace. Controlling what we can is extremely important for expansion. I was listening to a meditation today and the words playing in my backgr

I haven’t been keeping up with a morning routine lately. I’ve been rolling out of bed basically 15 minutes before I head to my kitchen table (temporary home office) for my 9-5 job that has been remote for over a month now. To say my morning “rut” started after NY mandated to stay at home would be a lie. It’s been around for months before that. The last part of 2018 was a really big year of change for me in a really positive way. It started with a two month long social media d

I sat on the train home wondering “why?”, once again. Today, I didn’t take very good care of myself and I’m feeling sick physically, mentally, and emotionally. I guess it’s a good thing I can recognize the cause pretty easily now. I used to live in the state more often than not: forgetting about me and letting everything else get my attention. The attention I was giving to everyone and everything else wasn’t very good. It was scattered. It was frazzled. It was drained and som