DREAMS° saturday thoughts

I’ve learned something of immense value that I’d like to share: one of the quickest ways to bring doubt into my dreams is to tell people about them. I have had so many ego-based thoughts that tried to tell me I’m not good enough to achieve the things I want. My racing mind has told me that what I strive to accomplish is impossible because it’s too hard, too risky, and not even worth trying because I’ll fail. This is the ego’s forté: fear. It is not our fault that the ego pops up when something out of the ordinary is brought into the conversation. It is nature – instilled in our cells to fear the unknown. Waaaaay back in the day, the unknown meant death, literal death, so it’s completely normal that when something that doesn’t align with the status quo is the topic that the ego is triggered.

All the relationships and experiences I am choosing to have at this moment are part of aligning myself with what I was put on this Earth to do: to love, learn, and create. Every person and circumstance are a part of my shedding of layers from the person I was molded into by the egos of the world, into who I am actually am- my being. I also know that not everyone I encounter is supposed to be part of every aspect of my life. Most people that cross my path are not going to be with me for the long-haul, they are temporary as are the stages of my life. I am fortunate to have attracted people that are more than just a fleeting moment, my soul-mates (which come in all forms- romantic, platonic, or family. Sometimes even they can’t see my vision and that is perfectly fine. They don’t have to understand it, only I do. But when I invite people into my dreams by telling them, chances are that their ego comes along with the invitation and with their ego, comes mine.

This is why I have to be impeccable with my word. This is why I have to know when to speak and when to be quiet. There is a huge balancing act between the two. I strive to be authentically me in all situations, and I would like to be able to tell the people in my life about my visions, HOWEVER I’ve learned the best way is to show them. There are some people I can bring along to help achieve my dreams, but there’s a very select few that will be able to believe in them before anything has translated into the physical world. This is not my problem unless I let the opinions of others influence my thoughts & decisions.

I used to let everyone influence my choices and, inevitably, my life. I choose schools, career paths, people, & experiences based on what looked good on the outside. I did everything “the right way” with the promise that this would make me happy. I was so afraid to make a choice for myself and fail that I let others choose for me. This was my recipe for extreme unhappiness. When I transferred home from school from my first year in pre-med, I decided I want to be a psychologist. I felt good with that decision. It felt like the right step. And then, I told my mother about it. Her immediate response was, “No you’re not. They don’t make enough money unless you go to school for over 10 years and even then its not guaranteed, you should go to school for accounting. Accountants make a lot of money.” This was her fear and I transferred it onto myself. At 19, I didn’t know any better. I knew she wanted what was best for me so I figured she knew better than I did.

I have been told by people, society, and by my own limited beliefs that I cannot become financially free doing something I love everyday. Through observing others in life, I “learned” that it is really hard to make money and that I am going to have to struggle and have to work day in and day out until the day that I retire and only then will I be able to do what I want. But there are people out there living the life of their dreams through the work they the chose to do and thriving. Most of the people that are living their dream have worked extremely hard to get to where they want to be, and got there by learning to NOT GIVE A FUCK about the naysayers and doubter’s opinions. They learned to go after their dreams because it was riskier to never try. To me, there is nothing riskier than living an unfulfilled life because I was too afraid to take the leap. There’s a beautiful quote by Jim Carrey thats goes a little something like this: “You can fail at something you don’t even like, so why not try to do something you love”. Ironically, he was talking about his Dad, an accountant who was laid off – currently, I do accounting at my job. His message is so profound and so simple at the same time – nothing in this life is guaranteed. We choose the “safer option” to have a sense of security, only to find out we never really had this security in the first place. When we make decisions out of fear, we actually create a lack of security.

The choice to listen to everyone else’s opinions instead of my own intuition led me to the darkest time in my life. In the darkness, a glimpse of light showed itself. A present that my mom (irony again) gave me for Christmas planted a seed that I knew I needed to nurture and water. It was a numerology report that was so accurate that I couldn’t help but feel there must be purpose to all of this and there has to be something more to life than the darkness that was consuming me. Little by little, I got myself out of it by immersing myself in readings about the tendencies of the human mind and spirituality. During this time of extreme transformation, I learned the power I have within me to change the entire course of my life just by using my own freewill and choice – PERSONAL choice – not the choice of my parents, society, my friends, and whoever else thinks they know whats best.

It’s interesting to look back and be able to connect the dots. I know that everything I have experienced up to this point was necessary to get back to the real me. There are so many lessons in all of the pain I’ve encountered that I know I am supposed to carry through the next phases of my life instead of repeating over and over again. I have truly learned to never let the opinions of others get in the way of my dreams and one of the biggest ways I can implement this is to protect myself through healthy boundaries and by not inviting other’s fear-based opinions into them. I’ve found one of the best ways to do this is by remaining quiet, being instead of talking about being, and having faith in myself and my abilities to accomplish my biggest dreams.

Love & light friends ✨

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