Quantum leaps are inevitable when you shift from the set path to the soul path

It's not easy to decide to lean into uncertainty.

I mean so much of us have been conditioned into deciding what to do with the rest of our lives from the ripe age of 18, a time where no one should be making that kind of decision lol

In school we're forced to focus on subjects like algebra, geometry, chemistry, and then labelled worthy or not by our ability to memorize "facts" that most likely are in one ear and out the other once the exam was over.

As I grow further away from the institutional aspects of society, I am able to see things more clearly than ever before.

Some people want everything laid out in front of them. There's nothing wrong with that and I am in awe of those who feel truly fulfilled in that because that is a feat I never accomplished. I always felt limited. I always felt like I couldn't be exactly who I was and express myself openly. It didn't feel possible, and it for sure didn't feel safe.

It's funny because I followed the accounting track after a short attempt at pre-med because I wanted security. Well, I wanted security because other people wanted if for me. So I wanted acceptance which equated directly to safety in my eyes. And I didn't realize I could make my own choices so I suffered my way through someone else's idea of what my path should look like.

Oh god did I suffer.

So the thing that was meant to create safety and security did the exact opposite. It created misalignment in my mind, body, and soul. Which is the most unsafe state to be in. If you can't trust your mind, body, or soul, what can you trust?

Nothing.

I had no trust in anything and most definitely not in myself. I was scared all of the time. I didn't think I could make it. Every molehill was a mountain.

My nervous system was so dis-regulated I was in a cycle of flight, fight, or freeze all of the time. No peace. No calm.

And I was most definitely convinced I was stuck in a set path that I hated.

Over ten years ago I made a choice to live differently. I opened up to the unknown. I started to let my soul guide the way. It wasn't easy at first. I had so much resistance. But I met the resistance with a question: am I resisting because this isn't right for me or because I was taught the exact opposite from what I am doing?

It was the latter, without a doubt.

Because the moments between resistance got longer. I felt good for the first time in i don’t know how long. I felt safe knowing I was deciding where to go, what to do, and who I could be.

So in choosing the soul path, I set myself free.